Saturday, April 16, 2016


As soon as finals are done, I’m starting an series where I’m going to speak on everything I personally value. It’s also going to be about my personal opinions. This could be my thoughts on anything—my career, family, philosophy, etc. Like a personal bible. I might buy a separate book just for this. I constantly have so many conflicting opinions in my head... it’s important to me that I start being decisive and clear in every aspect of my life, and that has to start with myself. And of course my opinions will change, but I never want to be in the middle of what I used to think and new information I've learned. I don’t want to say “i don’t know" anymore. About anything. 

Thursday, April 14, 2016

“i’m not loud, or outrageous, or a white girl with a big ass, but i’m fuckin honest” —DG

.... but it'sallgooooood

Today was… eventful.
I went to sleep uber-anxious after crying for three hours (life). As soon as I got to class, everything was fixed. There will be some penalties, but it’ll all be fine. I can't afford to slack off this weekend. Or the weekend after that… or the one after that. 1x for mother nature...
If it wasn’t for my friends, my AMAZING, constantly positive friends, I would have felt so hopeless today. 
My mom called me to be a mom, in the moment when I expected it least. It made me laugh, in the moment... but now that I think about it, I'm really upset. This only makes me want to be more and more successful so that I can prove her wrong, because she’s unfortunately right. She just doesn’t want me to be a broke bitch, I get that... but I can't spend 10 years in a career that I don't have my heart set out on.  She thinks i’m wasting my knowledge, her sacrifice, her money. Thinks I need prayer. I personally think I'm done with this argument. I can't be guilted into medical school. We’re going to have to come to a compromise…. I'm drawing the line after that. 
I hate fake b******… currently trying my hardest to step my "ignoring your existence even though we used to be bffs" game up.
I saw so many crushes today. emphasis on "saw." No speaking. I'm a punk.
I won in this little styling competition, and I get to work in a fashion show happening in late may. I’ll be damned if I take these opportunities for granted. (excuse my french)

Now, I have to do work. Got dance practice in an hour. lesssdodis.